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Um... WOAH [Dec. 16th, 2005|11:42 am]
New York City has 11 letters

2) Afghanistan has 11 letters.

3) Ramsin Yuseb (The terrorist who threatened to destroy the Twin
Towers in 1993) has 11 letters.

4) George W Bush has 11 letters.

This could be a mere coincidence, but this gets more interesting:

1) New York is the 11th state.

2) The first plane crashing against the Twin Towers was flight number

3) Flight 11 was carrying 92 passengers. 9 + 2 = 11

4) Flight 77 which also hit Twin Towers, was carrying 65 passengers.
6+5 = 11

5) The tragedy was on September 11, or 9/11 as it is now known. 9 + 1+ 1 = 11

6) The date is equal to the US emergency services telephone number
911. 9 + 1 + 1 = 11.

Sheer coincidence..?! Read on and make up your own mind:

1) The total number of victims inside all the hi-jacked planes was
254. 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.

2) September 11 is day number 254 of the calendar year. Again 2 + 5 + 4
= 11.

3) The Madrid bombing took place on 3/11/2004. 3 + 1 + 1 + 2 + 4 = 11.

4) The tragedy of Madrid happened 911 days after the Twin Towers

Now this is where things get totally eerie:

The most recognised symbol for the US, after the Stars & Stripes, is
the Eagle. The following verse is taken from the Quran, the Islamic
holy book:

"For it is written that a son of Arabia would awaken a fearsome Eagle.
The wrath of the Eagle would be felt throughout the lands of Allah and lo,
while some of the people trembled in despair still more rejoiced: for
the wrath of the Eagle cleansed the lands of Allah and there was

That verse is number 9.11 of the Quran.

Still uncovinced about all of this..?! Try this and see how you feel
afterwards, it made my hair stand on end:

Open Microsoft Word and do the following:

1. Type in capitals Q33 NY. This is the flight number of the first
plane to hit one of the Twin Towers.

2. Highlight the Q33 NY.

3. Change the font size to 48.

4. Change the actual font to the WINGDINGS

What do you think now?!!
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:-o Lynn has orders! [Dec. 9th, 2005|04:46 pm]
I never saw this one coming. I never thought I would have orders 6 months ahead of time, but I do. I have orders to the West Point Military Academy as a nurse taking care of the cadets. Wow. I don't even know what to say. This would take me away from John for another two years, but I wouldn't be deployed and I'd have an awesome station for the rest of my service time. I am excited, nervous, freaked out. I am also sad that it is again going to take me away from John, we planned to get stationed together but this is worth it I think. John and I have our whole lives together, this is two years.

Wow, wow, wow.

<3 Lynn
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Turkey... [Nov. 23rd, 2005|05:12 pm]

<3 Lynn
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.... woo [Nov. 23rd, 2005|05:12 pm]
Although I love working with the patients on the floor, I got to go to a clinic today. I got to see and assist with an upper and lower colonoscopy and endoscopy. It was one of the coolest things I've seen in a while. In addtion to that I got to see a ERCP. Which is a endoscopic retrograde cholangiopancreatography. That looks like a foreign language but it is an interesting proceedure. The patient was seen in the GI clinic about six months ago, where she was misdiagnosed with pancreatitis. After continued and prolonged pain they re-evaluated her lab values and tests and determined that she had pancreatic cancer. If they had diagnosed her six months ago, she had a very strong chance of survival. Unfortunatly now, all of her treatment is pallative.

For the proceedere, the physician took a scope into her duodenum where the pancreatic and common bile duct are located. The patient had a stint placed in each opening two months ago, and was back again today to have them changed out. It was so cool to see how the stints were placed and removed. I haven't really seen anything like that before. Also to be involved in the proceedure was very cool. There are so many channels of nursing that I have not discovered yet and I don't think I will be choosing a specialty until I have experienced as many as I can.

Back on the ward I am taking two or three patients at a time, depending on their care needs. I have had some interesting patients thus far and the walky talky patients always have interesting stories to share. Especially the active duty soldiers coming back with injuries from the war; or the retired military who fought in their younger years. I think that I learn more from them than I would in a civilian hospital. I experience injuries not seen in civilian hospitals. I don't think I would ever care for a patient that had pieces of shrapnel dice through his body in a civilian hospital. Despite the "hard" of the Army life, I honestly wouldn't trade it for a civilian life right now. Even when I get out of the military, I will always want to work in a military hospital.

Today was awesome.

Oh, yeah... and self-pt today... YAY
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Awesome day [Nov. 4th, 2005|07:04 pm]
For the most part being in the Army sucks. I don't have a lot of good things to say about it. But the other day during my shift in the hospital I was reminded why I did join.

I had an awesome patient to care for the other day. He is an active duty soldier who was wounded in the dining facility when a suicide bomber set himself off last year in Mosul. A piece of shrapnel sliced through his body. He had 32 surgeries to repair his pancreas and bowel. After he was stable enough to be shipped back to the U.S. he had further surgeries at the medical center in Texas. It was only 3 weeks ago that he was well enough to be shipped back to Fort Lewis where his unit is. He still has an abdominal wound that he cleans and manages himself. He was brought to the ward I was on for pancreatitis (inflammation of the pancreas). As a guy that just had major surgery on his abdomen, to include his pancreas, he was very prone to inflammation. To add to the risk of infection and inflammation, he started to drink heavily and eat rather bad foods. Drinking 8-10 beers a day and eating fast food for two weeks put him back in the hospital with an extreme pain and dangerous inflammation. I was his nurse the other day and it really made me realize why I joined. By the end of the day I really felt that I made a difference in his life. He asked me if he was always going to be in and out of the hospital. I told him that he had to start eating healthy and quit the drinking. Alcohol is a major cause for pancreatitis, and having severe trauma to it as well is asking for problems. He told me that he was going to stop drinking entirely. He told me he could walk away from it. His girl friend was there by his side. She is another soldier in his unit. She was sitting next to him at the table when the bomb went off and injured him. It was just an awesome experience to meet and care for someone like that. I would never ever get that experience in a civilian hospital, no matter how long I worked at one. I guess it is hard for others to understand why... but ... for the first time, I realized why I joined. I wouldn’t go back and change it. Even with two years of college fun.
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ROAD TRIP [Oct. 16th, 2005|10:59 am]

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La ti da [Oct. 15th, 2005|10:49 am]

I wouldn't say life is getting any better in regards to the program, but it is getting more tolerable now that I am sort of getting used to it. There are good days and bad days. Guess it depends on what sergeant is having PMS.

We are done working at the verterans hospital. As much as I didn't like the "CNA" bitch work (i.e. the staff nurses dumping all their patients on us) I am a little sad that it is over. Some of the patients are very interesting. Many of them can't communicate much but they have led very interesting lives. I suppose I had two "favorite" patients that I worked with. Surprisingly, one of them I was not too thrilled about working with him in the first place because he needed constant care. That particular veteran was a POW and one of the few to survive the Bataan Death March. I had never heard of it so I went back to research it a little bit. Knowing more about it now, I feel honored and privlaged to be able to help this man now when he needs it. He is on full care now and I will never forget that I got to help and care for such a hero...

Details on the BDM:

.... the POWs would be harshly beaten and killed for the slightest or no reason at all. Officer status did not provide protection either. First the troops were searched. Any prisoner found with Japanese souvenirs was executed immediately, because the Japanese believed the soldier must have killed a Japanese soldier in order to get it. Many soldiers had found these items, such as money and shaving mirrors. Their own personal property was usually stolen as well.

The Bataan Death March began at Mariveles on April 10, 1942. Any troops who fell behind were executed. Japanese troops beat soldiers randomly, and denied the POWs food and water for many days. One of their tortures was known as the sun treatment. The Philippines in April is very hot. Therefore, the POWs were forced to sit in the sun without any shade, helmets, or water. Anyone who dared ask for water was executed. On the rare occasion they were given any food, it was only a handful of contaminated rice. When the prisoners were allowed to sleep for a few hours at night, they were packed into enclosures so tight that they could barely move. Those who lived collapsed on the dead bodies of their comrades. For only a brief part of the march would POWs be packed into railroad cars and allowed to ride. Those who did not die in the suffocating boxcars were forced to march about seven more miles until they reached their camp. It took the POWs over a week to reach their destination. (it was a 100 mile march... during that time they were not fed enough, watered enough, and had been on half-rations for months before they were captured)

... after they got to the camp ----- local commanders could do as they wished without reprimand. However, considering the indoctrination of Japanese troops, reprimand was highly unlikely. If the commander wished, he could make anything, even whistling, a crime and inflict any type of punishment, including execution.

There were over 140,000 white POWs in Japanese prison camps. They received the harshest treatment of all.
(the man I had been caring for was one of them)

Of the estimated 10,000 Americans on the March, it is estimated that 1,000 died. Thousands of Filipinos died on this same March.

...... extreme water shortage, meager rice ration, rampant diseases and brutal treatment resulted in a high daily death rate among the POWs. In May, 1942, there were 8,000 POWs and the death rate was 50 per day.
About 800 veterans of the BDM are alive today. I was able to care for one of them. ----


Last Monday was a holdiay that my class had off. I was put on flag detail so I had to stick around for the weekend. My duty was to put up the flag on post and take it back down at night. I didn't think much of it. Of the five people in the flag ceremony I was the one that put up the flag. It really made me feel great as I watched the flag go up, Mount Rainer in the distance with the sun rising up behind it. It was awesome. Then later that day, I went to take down the flag. Saluting the flag as it was coming down, 25 or so civilians and military rendering honors to the flag as well, was also a great experience. It is these experiences that remind me why I am here, why I am putting up with all this crap. Things could be a lot worse, and I am really glad that I am serving.

... despite all the bull it is worth it in the end.

Oh, and I got a 90% on my last test. YAY!
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*sigh* [Oct. 10th, 2005|06:36 pm]

I miss my baby John. He is my world. It hurts to be away from him. Bleh.

Okay. I'm done with my short rant about how it sucks to be away from him.

<3 Lynn
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*YAWN* [Oct. 4th, 2005|06:46 pm]
I am tired. I miss John. I wish I could hold him right now. To go home to him every night would be the best thing in the world. I was never told life would be easy. But being hard, I wasn't thinking it meant being away from the dearest one to me. I mean, what kind of crewl joke is that? Most people take advantage of going home to their loved one. They forget how lucky they are that at the end of the night they go home to someone who loves them. I go home to my barracks room and fight of the rat in the corner. I suppose I shouldn't be so naive. Some people don't even have a love. I am so lucky to love and be loved so much. The people sitting in Iraq right now away from their families as well. The people who lost everything they have from the hurricanes. I guess I am spoiled that I have a good job and I'm taken care of. That I can pick up the phone and hear a calming voice that loves me. I just miss him. I miss him so much. I'm tired of being away from him. It is going to be a long 9 months of school. I graduate the Fourth of July - 2006; two days after my 22nd birthday. If all goes as planned. I will be up with John in Alaska shortly after than. Provided, the Army doesn't jerk me around and screw me over.

Sigh. Time to get back to work. Work never ends.

-- Lynn
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SO you think it can't get any worse.... [Sep. 20th, 2005|06:24 pm]

I've had to write two - one thousand word essays for not meeting the standards at my company. The standards are retarded. Last week during PT formation, we are all standing there in our summer PTs. Without warning we were told that we were to go to our cars or lockers and return with out full set of winter PTs withen two minutes. Mind you it is 70 degrees outside so actually wearing winter PTs is out of regulation. However, at Bravo company it was put out that we were to have a full set of winter PTs on us at all times no matter what the weather. My PT jacket was turned into the cleaners cause it was dirty so naturally I didn't have it. Me and 23 other people did not have the full set either. So, we were given our punishment on paper. 3,000 words on : The Importance of Following Directions and Being Prepared to Include its Impact on Military Readiness.

You have got to be damn kidding me. So how was my weekend? I spent my whole weekend writing a 3000 word essay and washing cars at the car wash that I was volun-told I had to be at. I'm so tired now. Bleh... I was also advised by my sergeant that if that ever happens again I might want to invest in a full other set of winter IPFUs. Great. $100 I spent so that I meet retarded and sensless standards.

Here is the essay....

The Importance of Following Directions and Being Prepared to Include its Impact on Military Readiness.

19 September 2005

Private First Class ---------

For SFC -------

"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit."

People join the military thinking they are being hired for a job. It isn’t until a person has been in the military that they find it is a way of life. It is an adjustment that does not come easily. Along the way a young soldier will learn many values and learn to live by the soldier’s creed. It is to be hoped that a soldier is brought into the Army with the core Army values: loyalty, duty, honor, respect, integrity, selfless-service, and personal courage. This isn’t always the case. Depending on how a soldier was raised and the environment they grew up in, they may not have many of these core values. In this case, making the transition from civilian to soldier is not an easy task. I was lucky to have been raised to have these values already in my life. It is other aspects of the life of a soldier that are harder to adjust to.

In the soldier’s creed, we claim to be a warrior and a member of a team. Making myself into a warrior who is expected to kill another person if their unit is threatened is a task that was hard for me to follow. As for working as a member of a team, that is something that I love doing in the first place. The soldier’s creed has four warrior ethos that define a soldier much like the 7 Army values. (1). I will always place the mission first. Learning to do this is not as easy as it sounds. As a combat medic we are trained to save in the field during battle. As a combat medic we have to remember that we are soldiers first and if using the time necessary to save a life compromises our mission then we must move on with the mission. (2). I will never accept defeat. By accepting defeat we in turn say our enemy has won. We have not accomplished our mission and have failed. (3). I will never quit. When we quit we fail. We let our unit down and faith our mission. We may find 10,000 ways to not complete the mission, but we have found 10,000 ways it does not work. The key is not quitting. (4). I will never leave a fallen comrade. If we leave a man behind we have not only failed them, we have failed ourselves as humans, to leave our own for the enemy. These warrior ethos are distinct parts of the soldier’s creed, words that we live by. The key aspect of the soldier’s creed that will be highlighted in this paper is: Always maintaining my, arms, my equipment, and myself.

On Thursday, September 15, 23 soldiers from the PNC junior class were asked to write a 3,000 word essay on the importance of military readiness; having all your equipment ready and accessible at all times. These soldiers did not have all of their full physical fitness uniform, to include the summer uniform, full IPFU set, white socks above the ankle, running shoes, and reflective belt. Living in Washington State where it the phrase around the natives is “Don’t like the weather here? Wait five minutes,” it is necessary to always be prepared for any kind of weather. With the rapid changing weather we must always be prepared for rain and cold.

This doesn’t just apply to the physical fitness uniform. It applies with all aspects of our job. Having all equipment necessary in working order is the key to military readiness. As a soldier we must have our weapon cleaned and ready to protect ourselves and our unit. If we do not have it maintained when we need it to be reliable and working, it may jam-up. This may cause injury to ourselves or to our unit because we were not able to protect ourselves. Soldiers need to inspect their other equipment as well. They need to test their gas masks for functionality. If a gas mask fails to work properly, it may as well be left at home.

As a combat medic, we must always have our medical aide bags stocked with all the supplies needed. On deployments our unit depends on us to have all the equipment and supplies needed to care for soldiers with some common injuries. If we were to be negligent when packing our aide bags and did not put in any occlusive dressings, we may not be able to treat a soldier with a bullet wound.

As a nurse in the hospital it is crucial that we have our equipment maintained. We must always have the emergency room stocked with needed supplies that are in good working condition. Medicines cannot be expired, batteries in equipment must be charged at all times, and unnecessary equipment must be stored out of the way.

In the operating room, the nurse must maintain a sterile field. All equipment must be free of disease causing organisms. The nurse must pay attention to the status of the patient and inspect to be sure that all monitoring equipment and tubing is attached correctly to the patient. If a Foley catheter comes loose and urine escapes from the tube and bladder, the sterile field is grossly contaminated and the procedure cannot continue until sterility is under control again. Nurses must maintain their own equipment as well. They need to be sure their face masks are properly protecting themselves. If they do not fit properly they may be exposing themselves to airborne pathogens that can be fatal or debilitating to themselves, other medical service providers and other patients.

As part of a nurse’s job, they are expected to deliver medications to patients without mistakes. They need to calculate medication doses without error. One or two numbers off in a calculation can be the difference between life and death in a patient; especially in the elderly and the very young. Calculating the medication dozes does is not all that the nurse is to be aware of. Having the discipline to ask the patient what medications he or she is allergic to prior to dispensing the medication is equally important. If a patient is allergic to morphine and the nurse forgets to check for allergies, the patient may go into shock within minutes. It is also important the medication that is being administered is given by the correct route, time, to the right patient, and it is documented correctly. If one of these points is wrong, the nurse may have made a serious mistake. Maintaining the knowledge that nurses have in regards to delivering medication is a crucial part of safe nursing.

It is obvious how important it is to maintain Army readiness by and having access to all working equipment. So the question is, why do we sometimes fail at doing what is right? I have a number of theories as to why we do not always have everything in order, but I can’t speak for every one that has even failed in their life, nor can I speak for the 23 people in our class that didn’t bring part of their uniform to class.

I take a look at the people that are writing their 3,000 word essays and decide that many of them are “squared away”. I haven’t been perfect in my stay at B. Company MAMC, but I refuse to believe that I am a bad soldier, along with other soldiers that are called out for the things they do wrong. I have heard it said that success seems to always occur in private, and failure in full view. It is easy to notice when someone does something wrong. It is harder for many people to see when someone does the right thing and many times it goes unnoticed.

If a group of people are instructed to do something that seems senseless many are not going to see the purpose of it. This causes me to think that some people may not be too concerned with “senseless” instructions, and are perhaps ignorant. Ignorant to the fact that maybe it isn’t the instruction in itself, but the ability to follow instructions in the first place. "Nothing in the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity." (King, 1) This famous quote by Martin L. King Jr. holds strong even today. Although some soldiers may not see the point in bringing the full set of the physical training uniform when it is 70 degrees outside, they may not understand that it isn’t the act in bringing the uniform, but the act of following the direction to do so. This may reflect how a soldier may react to instructions given in the future that may seem senseless at the time but will make sense later. The seemingly senseless instruction may be crucial to the task at hand.

Another trend that I see is that during the hustle and rush of the early mornings, we tend to forget the things we need during the day. This is caused by poor time management and attention to detail. This can be solved in several ways. For one thing, putting together all necessary items for the next day, the night before not only saves time, but creates less stress. Making a list of what needs to be done throughout the day makes it less likely to forget the important tasks to be done. By keeping an organized planner – and using it – it enables people to manage their time better and better see what needs to be done before the first formation of the day.

“Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts” (Churchill, 2). This quote is necessary to hear during times of failure, especially when people try to do the right thing. Winston Churchill emphasizes the importance of moving on past the failure; to learn from it and grow and to use the gained knowledge to do better in the future. That being said, how do we do that?

When soldiers are given directions, they are given by non-commissioned and commissioned officers. Our leaders know something we don’t. By listening to our leaders, they may show us things we don’t know, by their own experience and what has been taught to them. So how best do we do this? To find success we must raise ourselves to the standard because the standard will never lower itself to us. When directions are given out, it is more than likely that they are given to a platoon size group. Because of this we must work together to be successful with every direction given. “Alone we can do so little; together we can do so much” (Keller, 3). We are an Army of One… we work together to carry out the mission, to succeed and not fail. If one person fails to follow through with instructions, then the team fails as a whole. The soldier that failed at his task failed his unit, and his unit failed him to make sure he was able to succeed. We must work together, to bring everyone up to the standard that is set, so that no man is left behind to fall sub-standard.

Reaching the standard is not an easy task when the standards are high. It is even more challenging to make sure others meet the standard as well. One of the greatest things a soldier can do to bring others up to the standard is by way of motivating them. “Motivation is everything. You can do the work of two people, but you can't be two people. Instead, you have to inspire the next guy down the line and get him to inspire his people” (Iacocca, 4). The strategy of Lee Iacocca (one of the most recognized businessman in the world) is to motivate others to meet the standard. Follow through with instructions that have been put out. For example, a three thousand word essay, Saturday school, and counseling statements are tools that will cause many people to find ways to adhere to the standard. There are a lot more painless ways of meeting the standard and following directions however.

“Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going” (Ryun, 5). I have already discussed the importance of being organized and managing time well. It is equally important to bring these strategies into strong habits that are made a part of daily life. These good habits will not just make you successful one day but will continue to remain a part of life. By instilling these habits into daily routine, and encouraging others to do the same, it will make being prepared for class and ready to be successful much easier.

Many times at the end of long days, we tend to procrastinate. We set aside the things that we should do, with the things we want to do. The problem with procrastination is that it doesn’t allow us to budget our time. In many cases time may be our worst enemy; what we never seem to have enough of. “Procrastination is the thief of time” (Young, 6). We can never get back the time that we use doing things that we don’t have to do. It is that time that we waste that could have prepared us for class, made our uniform look a little nicer, or made us ready to learn for the next day. It is also necessary to have “me” time worked into the day. This must be budgeted around the things that really must be done. It takes discipline to study for a big test rather than go out and see that new movie. It is being responsible for what is important.

To be successful it is important to learn from the mistakes that are made. The only real mistake made is the one we have no learned from. “When you make a mistake, don't look back at it long. Take the reason of the thing into your mind and then look forward. Mistakes are lessons of wisdom. The past cannot be changed. The future is yet in your power” (White, 7). By looking forward to the future, taking a mistake that is made as a learning experience, you’d be better prepared for what else may be thrown at you. The person that is successful is the one who can lay the foundation with the strong bricks that are thrown at him. The only way that someone can catch those bricks is by knowing how to handle them. The best way to do that is to know what works and what doesn’t work by using the past experiences of successes and failures.

It is crucial to be confident in your abilities. I know that nobody will ask me to do anything that I am not capable of doing. So I need to do what is expected of me using my motivation and attitude that I show while doing my daily tasks. “Ability is what you're capable of doing. Motivation determines what you do. Attitude determines how well you do it” (Holtz, 8). It is one thing to carry out what is expected of you with a bad attitude and a whole other thing when you have a positive attitude. A person’s attitude is contagious. “Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life” (Anon 9). Showing up at work with a bad attitude sets the tone for others as well. It causes them to not do as well and the overall success of the day is jeopardized.

While having a positive attitude it is also important to perform on a level beyond what is expected of you. “Hold yourself responsible for a higher standard than anybody expects of you. Never excuse yourself” (Beecher, 10). By reaching for a standard higher than the set level, it sets a person up for success. There is a very popular saying that I’ve heard all my life: Reach for the stars! Though this is an inspiring quote I tend to like the quote my English professor used: Strive for the moon, if you fall short you still land among the stars. Using this belief it prepares me to be successful in my day.

Some directions are not easily endured. Day to day instructions at the practical nurse course are somewhat easy to follow. It is when soldiers are sent out to fight a war that some instructions are harder to handle. When we are ordered to Iraq knowing we will be facing danger and new conditions, we will react differently to the instructions given to us. This is when we may have to face fear. “You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, "I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along." . . . You must do the thing you think you cannot do” (Roosevelt, 11). When we are challenged with a task that we complete to the best of our ability, it strengthens us and prepares us for what may come in the future.

In order to be successful in the military and in all professions we must follow directions to the best of or ability. We must prepare ourselves by maintaining our equipment and having it easily accessible. It is necessary to do these things to be ready to handle anything that may be asked of us. As nurses and as soldiers we are expected to adhere to a standard. By doing so we must follow directions with a positive attitude to maintain military readiness.
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